THE STRUGGLE TO STAY CONNECTED

I've spent many many drunken nights with my good old blackberry bold. (I've only had it for 6 months... ) When you're holding your phone and your vodka cran in one hand, sometimes you lose grip of the phone.. not sometimes- but very often. I mean, when it comes down to it.... what really IS more important? My 5 dollar cocktail or my phone? Right? My point is, my phone has seen it's rougher days but never has it actually said "OKAY THAT'S IT YOU NEGLEGENT PHONE OWNER" and given up on me. It's been so good to me!

Until....

I was enjoying the company of my ever so handsome Max and decided to hand him over my blackberry. He just loves pressing buttons! BUT, he's also decided that throwing things on the floor and listening to the loud clang is super enjoyable.

So...

My phone's broken. Byebye bbm, byebye data, byebye facebook whereever I please, byebye CONNECTED.



It's a hundred times more shitty because the only thing wrong with it is the screen. It functions normally, recieving texts, bbms, makes phone calls, access to the internet.. but none of these functions are useful to me if the blasted screen doesn't work. So it dings and chirps whenever someone is trying to message or email me.. but all I can do is sit there and watch it blink red knowing I'll never know what that message held... (is that pathetic.. maybe.. a little)

I won't be getting a new phone for at least another 2 weeks, but holy camole, I thought it would be easier to be disconnected. I guess I didn't realize how much I depended on my phone for entertainment. I told Dre that I could probably try to live without a smartphone.. to which he replied with a look that stated "you're joking right? you, babe?".

I'm taking this as a challenge. I SO can live without being connected via a smartphone.. I mean, what have we come to?? I can live without bbm, I can live with out 24/7 access to the wonderful world wide web. YES I CAN!

With a little struggle, yes.. I think I can. Well, bottom line is, I really don't even have a choice BUT to live without it. Wish me luck!

THE TERROR THAT IS THE BATHING SUIT.

Ok ladies, the sun's presence is making itself increasingly familiar here in ywg and there's a quiet but familiar fear that's creeping up behind me as the seasons change.

As I shed the layers of black, studded and leather goodies, I am reminded that my fashion kryptonite is summer. Living here makes you an expert at dressing in layers and for the seasons fall and winter. It also makes you quite amateur at dressing for anything warmer than 15 degrees celsius.

Given the near 30 degree weather we've been having lately, the beach has been on my mind. Which, simply means I've been running like a mad woman (outside more than inside to work on getting back some colour) and shopping online for some figure flattering *insert ominous music here* BATHING SUITS.

I'm over the bikini...(that's a lie, I'm not over it, I just can't wear them anymore) and I've come to the conclusion that your basic tankini is just not flattering.

I am loooove the 60's inspired suits. I tried some on recently and THEY ARE A WINNER, ladies!! Flattering, tasteful and sexy.

MY FIRST TRY

My favourite accessories are my feather earrings. I have several pairs and I wear them often. This one didn't come in a set- just one. I love feathers so much that you best believe that my bm's and moh's will be sporting some of these beauties on the big day! Check out Ruby Feathers, a local maker of fabulous leather and feather goodies. I don't know how I'll incorporate it for myself, yet.

CONTRADICTION

I follow a handful of fashion/photography blogs on a daily basis. It was the reason I started this blog in the first place.. Such an inspiration to see other young people with their fingers on the pulses of fashion, art and photography and share their passions with the rest of us meek observers.

When I started this blog, I didn't want it to become a 'dear diary' exposed to the general web public.. but I didn't think I had my hands deep enough in the vast world that is 'fashion' to have a whole blog based on it.

The more blogs I read, the further I feel from succeeding at the task at hand (which is to create an interesting, witty, fashion filled blog readable to all audiences). The more I read, the more I realize that I am a walking blog-tradiction.

Simply put, my life seems the exact opposie of the guys and gals I so religiously follow . I'm a full time nurse.. THEY are photographers, people watchers, fashion students and journalists. I spend most of my time dressed in lime green, hot pink and yellow floral scrubs. THEY spend their days learning the industry, wearing trendsetting outfits loud and proud. I'm a flippin blogtradiction.

Anyway, I've decided to take things a little further.. after all, I'm actually only a part time nurse.. maybe not so much a blog-tradiction as I initially thought?? Keep posted for more!

HAVE A GOOD DAY

I work a 0.2 EFT at a palliative care ward. I've always loved palliative care - i find that it takes on an entirely different realm of nursing that you often don't see in acute care wards. I just started there and I'm finding the constant transition between an acute surgical ward to a palliative care ward a little challenging.. espcially when it comes to interpersonal communication. What do you say to someone who's just lost their father? You don't come accross that often on a surgical ward, thank goodness.

I had my first death the other day. No surprise. The man was dying and the family was at the bedside. No matter how much you prepare yourself mentally for an event like this, the reality of the situation when it occurs will never compare.

So, what do you say?

After all was said and done, the family thanked us at the desk and said goodbye. I walked them off the ward, hugged the wife and told the son.....to....uh...

HAVE A GOOD DAY?

Yes, I said that. Ridiculous. Immediately after the words rolled of my tongue, I had a twisting feeling in my gut that made me want to apologize for the blunder. I just walked away and took this as a lesson. If you don't know what to say, don't say anything.

BREAKING SILENCE

Oops has it really been this long since my last post?! APOLOGIES!

scenario: boy and girl are looking at graduation photos from 2 years ago.. on the TV is shawn t's infomercial for insanity videos. START SCENE

girl: babe we need to be able to show these pictures to our kids. proof that we were once good looking and slim!
boy: you're still pretty.



girl: oh... thaaaaaaaaaanks babe.

END scenario.
Now, tell me what went wrong here? Because it took a few seconds for boy to understand girl's reaction!

you gotta love him but sometimes boy's just aren't there! YOU KNOW? *palmface.

On another note, I've been following antm this season and the first few of tyra's onesies made me shudder in disgust. However, just like justin bieber, miley, rihanna's 'rude boy', the blackberry and socks with closed toed sandals -- with repeated exposure to such crazy things, sometimes you just start to change your feelings about them! Based on sheer repeated exposure.
Proof, I now desire a onesie.. will i buy one? Who knows?! I'm still on the hunt for the perfect pair of clogs so I can wear them with long mens socks.. But with all my bbm-ing, I can't seem to find the time to shop.. On top of that, watching jbieber's snl performance and downloading miley's movie has kept me even more busy.

(.. ok well i'm really not downloading or streaming videos because I don't know HOW, but the point is I'm infatuated with these things that I once seriously disliked.) So I guess I'm off to go to hunt for my onesie!

Before I go, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ONE OF MY BFFS ROSHINI, WE'RE ONLY AS OLD AS WE LET OURSELVES THINK WE ARE. cheers to being 21! three years in a row.

PS: movies to see: hot tub time machine, she's out of your league, 500 days of summer.

WEDDING DEBATES

People always ask me how the wedding planning is going and really, it's slow. I have a year and 3 months left and last I checked on my calender, I had a year and a half! (Where did the last three months go? and hey where did my NYresolution go?!) We had another meeting with our planner (eventsbyemma.com) and it's nice to see how things are starting to become more tangeable.. We chose some linens and chair covers and got a rough idea of what our centerpeices would look like. It's so exciting and the best part is Dre is just as excited and involved in choosing pretentious details like the crystal detailing on the chair cover. (HOW AWESSOMMMMEE!)

We talked a lot about budget.. not my favourite thing to talk about, and I'm pretty sure it's going to be hard to follow. (shit is expensive these days, man.) Anyways this brings me to my WEDDING DEBATE 1: TO SOCIAL OR NOT TO SOCIAL

What's great about having a wedding planner is that she is a good source of information and advice from all her experience with Winnipeg Weddings. Dre and I always find ourselves saying "oh, really? we had no idea!" (ie: did you know taht you can't just hop into the legislative or kp or assiniboine with the wedding party to take pictures.. There is a fee and papers you must obtain prior to, otherwise, they'll kick you out!) So we ask Emma her opinion on everything including The Social.

Dre seems to want a social..no, it's certain, he wants a social. He seems to want to throw a party more than raise funds.. but I am just not willing to fuss over arranging an event so big (i hired a wedding planner for a reason, you know?)
The only socials I've ever attended have appeared to be so successful but I've definitely heard of social horror stories that became more trouble than anything.

I'm told that some people aren't as generous as they used to be because of the amount of socials being thrown every weekend.. but maybe I don't attend enough socials because all the ones I've been to have had a huge turnout and extremelty saught after prizes.

What's your opinion on Wedding Socials? YAY OR NAY?

My official vote is N TO THE AY. (primarily because i'm LAY TO THE ZEE)